Out of My Mind Series #3 - Fears

Hey y'all! Happy belated Thanksgiving! Hope you're stuffed full of food & remember what you're truly thankful for. This post is about a topic that is the opposite of being thankful. I got to thinking about it after watching this week's O2L videos. That subject is fear. That got me thinking about what I truly fear. Here's the list:

1. Spiders - The includes spiders of ALL sizes! If I even see a tiny one I will completely freak out. It's gotten better as I've gotten older, but I am the poster child for aracnidphobia. The thought of the concept of the movie "Eight Legged Freaks" is my worst nightmare! I can't even watch the scenes in the second Harry Potter movie with all of the spiders without covering my eyes or skipping that part. The closest I've gotten to watching anything with a spider in it is "Miss Spider's Sunny Patch" (I think that's the name of it. It's a kids show.) I was barely able to watch "Charlotte's Web." (Don't get me started on spider webs.)
2. The unknown - This may be a bit irrational, but there's something about the unknown that freaks me out. I'm 22 now & will graduate from college with my bachelor's degree in elementary education, but I don't know if I really wanna teach kids for the rest of my life. Don't get me wrong, I like kids, but the thought of tons of kids relying on me to teach them what they need to know scared me. I'm not really a planner, but I like to have at least an outline of what could happen, & if it happens it happens. The fear of the unknown brings me to my next fear...
3. Being alone forever - This is another one of those things where I'm 22, & I see everyone around me either getting into relationships, getting engaged, getting married, or having kids. In the south, it's uncommon for me to not at be dating a guy by now. It's even worse being a Christian, where young marriage is very common. The thought of being that crazy cat (or dog) lady is a scary thought for me! I just saw 2 of my close friends get engaged this weekend, & I'm completely happy for them, but it also made me scared that I could never have that. I know it's not up to me to decide who I'll date or marry or when, but I can't help but be scared of being alone.
4. Getting into a wreck - I usually only think about this when I'm in the car. I've been pretty close to getting in an accident, but it scares the crap out of me to think that my car could be hit & no one would know what happened to me. This fear is more about others than me. I don't want to worry my friends or family. I always think of what could happen if I'm in the middle of nowhere & be in a fatal accident.
5. Scary movies - This is the last one I'll talk about. I'm a huge scaredy cat when it comes to scary movies. I cover my eyes when I think something scary will happen. I jump easily. My friends make fun of me. It's not cool! 

That's all for this post. Have a great week! Happy Thanksgiving!

Live for God & Love for Music! 

- Patience <3 =)