Hey y'all! I'm watching you in advance that this is a rant blog & I'm sorry. So I've noticed the reason why I don't feel comfortable in my home town, & it's because everything has changed! When I was younger I was so blind to all the drama that actually goes on here. Now that I've been away for a while, I see that things have changed for the worst & I don't feel wanted here anymore. People have lied to me for months & I'm so sick of always feeling like I did something wrong! I just wanna go back to college & move away from this place. Besides most of my family & a few true friends, I have nothing else left. God has opened my eyes to the things that I couldn't see before. I'm not saying that my college is perfect, but I actually feel at home there. There's drama, but compared to this place it's like nothing. When I'm home I question every decision I make & if I can trust anyone, even some family members. The worst part is that I love my family & friends & my dog, but once I get the money I'm leaving this one horse town & moving onto some place that I feel like I belong. Right now I'm ready to go back to my classes & escape reality. My tears feel like they're gonna fill with tears at any moment, which never happens, & after the night I've had I just wanna get away as quick as I can. I'm an introvert but at this level I wanna go deep into a bubble of my own & shut out the world, which I know isn't what I should do. Have you ever felt like that? It's the worst! I thought the drama would be gone once I graduated but it's gotten worse in some ways.
Okay rant over! once again I am so sorry to load this out on y'all but I had to get it out. Please keep me & my friends & family in your prayers while we get through this. Thank you if you read until the end. I love y'all & hope you have a great week!
Live for God & Love for Music!
-Patience <3 =)
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