Things Have Changed

Hey y'all! I'm watching you in advance that this is a rant blog & I'm sorry. So I've noticed the reason why I don't feel comfortable in my home town, & it's because everything has changed! When I was younger I was so blind to all the drama that actually goes on here. Now that I've been away for a while, I see that things have changed for the worst & I don't feel wanted here anymore. People have lied to me for months & I'm so sick of always feeling like I did something wrong! I just wanna go back to college & move away from this place. Besides most of my family & a few true friends, I have nothing else left. God has opened my eyes to the things that I couldn't see before. I'm not saying that my college is perfect, but I actually feel at home there. There's drama, but compared to this place it's like nothing. When I'm home I question every decision I make & if I can trust anyone, even some family members. The worst part is that I love my family & friends & my dog, but once I get the money I'm leaving this one horse town & moving onto some place that I feel like I belong. Right now I'm ready to go back to my classes & escape reality. My tears feel like they're gonna fill with tears at any moment, which never happens, & after the night I've had I just wanna get away as quick as I can. I'm an introvert but at this level I wanna go deep into a bubble of my own & shut out the world, which I know isn't what I should do. Have you ever felt like that? It's the worst! I thought the drama would be gone once I graduated but it's gotten worse in some ways.

Okay rant over! once again I am  so sorry to load this out on y'all but I had to get it out. Please keep me & my friends & family in your prayers while we get through this. Thank you if you read until the end. I love y'all & hope you have a great week!

Live for God & Love for Music!
-Patience <3 =)

Husband Material

Hey yall! So lately I don't what's gotten into me, but all I've been thinking about is my future relationship (whenever that will be). I know God has a guy in the future for me somewhere, sometime, but I am so impatient (yes, ironic I know). One minute I'm thinking about a really great guy friend of mine that everyone thought I should date. He's no Prince Charming, in fact he's a big old goofball, but he's one of the sweetest guys I know! I though for a time it could be him, but then I realized that I was just thinking that cuz others said that thought it was a good idea. Whether it could actually be a thing or not I have no clue. But there is one guy that is also a friend of mine who is husband material. All the girls think the same way (it's almost a daily topic). He's attractive, love the Lord, super sweet guy, has a great sense of humor, kind, considerate, loves coffee, loves TWD, muscular, and all together a great guy. I know I would never have a shot with him, but whoever he dates is one lucky girl! Not only do I get to see him on Thursdays, but I see him usually at lunch/dinner, and we just happen to go to the same church (well when he shows up every other Sunday). I am such a girl when it comes to him! I feel like I instantly smile and go all girly when he's around and make a complete fool out of myself. I think it may just be my hormones messing with me, but I know that he is a great guy. For now I'm happy with just being his friend, but I kinda wish it would turn into something more. Sometimes I just wanna scream "Hey _______! I like you!" It doesn't help that his hometown is literally 15 minutes away from mine and is where my aunt and uncle live, so I just wanna invite him to hang out. I know I have to do the Christianly thing and wait for him to pursue me, but gosh dang it I can't stand waiting! Once again, that's just the girl in me. It's such a strange feeling to like someone. I don't really know if I like it or not, but I guess I'm just gonna have to deal with it, at least until he graduates/moves away. Okay, rant over!

Now for the music portion of this blog. I have my Top 10 love songs this week especially for this blog. So here ya go!

1. "Marry Me" - Jason Derrulo
2. "1, 2, 3, 4" - Plain White T's
3. "I'm Yours" - Jason Mraz
4. "Love Like Woe" - The Ready Set
5. "Mannequin" - The Summer Set
6. "Thunder" - Boys Like Girls
7. "Just the Girl" - The Click Five
8. "If It Means a Lot to You" - A Day To Remember
9. "I'll Be" - Edwin McCain
10. "Iris" - The Goo Goo Dolls

Welp that's my list. What's your list? Is there a guy in your life (or lady in your life if your a dude) that makes you act completely different than how you normally due? Are they husband/wife material? Let me know! I hope yall have a great week! Happy early Thanksgiving!

Live for God & Love for Music!

-Patience <3 =)

#TeamJerzak

Hey yall! Today I got to thinking about a person who has been really influencial to me over the past few years (& it's not just any person). I've talked before about how my favorite singer is Stephen Jerzak, & he has made such an impact on my life over the past 3 & a half years. I was first introduced to his music by my friend Morgan Graham. It was June right before my senior year of high school during a weekend vacation that our families & their CB club take together. She showed me his cover of "My First Kiss" by 3OH!3. From that point, we watched his music video for "Cute" & other videos he had posted. Let's just say I was hooked from the start! I remember the funniest moment of that night was when Morgan's grandma walked into the room & was asking what in the world he was singing. The next morning she was telling everyone at breakfast that we were watching a video & the guy was singing "this is the way I kiss" (wrong lyrics btw but it was hilarious to hear her take on the song). Ever since that night, I have loved his music. I tweeted earlier that it was amazing to see how far he has come musically, & it's so true! I started out seeing long-haired, 17 at the time, Stephen doing covers & making his first music video to him creating a pop album with a signed label to doing songs with Cady Groves, Leighton Meester, My Genuine Find, Jamestown Story, Romance on a Rocketship, & Dylan Lloyd. The first online purchase I ever bought was his zombie shirt (which I still wear as a sleep shirt, holes & all), & if that isn't dedication then I don't what is! I feel like I know him almost on a personal level, even though we have never even met & he only knows who I am because I tweet at him all the time & I tweet his sister, mom, & best friend (Dylan). I can proudly say that I have been a part of Team Jerzak from almost the beginning. His music just keeps getting better as he gets older. From 17 - 21, Stephen has always been the same guy he has always been, & it's all because of his fans. I hope that I can meet him one day, but for now I am okay with just listening to his music & watching his videos & live chats. I encourage everyone to check out his music & see why I love him so much! If you want to check out his YouTube it's youtube.com/stephenjerzak. His Facebook, Twitter, & Soundcloud are just the website name /stephenjerzak. Stephen, if you are reading this I want you to know that I am so proud of how far you have come, & I'm excited to see where you will go next!





For this week's Top 10 songs, I'm gonna countdown my favorite Stephen Jerzak songs of all time.

1. "Cute"
2. "Best Friends"
3. "Party Like You're Single"
4. "Dance & Drive"
5. "King"
6. "Come Back Home"
7. "Lost for Words"
8. "Party Girl"
9. "Where Did You Go"
10. "Hawaiin Punch"

I hope yall have a great rest of the week! Stay warm where ever you are! 

Live for God & Love for Music!

-Patience <3 =)

P.S. If you have twitter, make sure to tweet #Jerzday & tag Stephen & his family in it ;)