Even as I'm sitting here writing this, I'm trying to find the motivation to keep writing. If you couldn't tell by that last sentence, I've been lacking motivation a lot recently. The motivation to be productive. The motivation to do my best work. The motivation to do more things than just lay around and watch YouTube or the newest episode of whatever show I've started in order to probably procrastinate the next thing on my to-do list.
It hasn't always been like this. A few months ago, I was ready to work as hard as I could. At work, I was busting my butt off trying to climb up the ladder and get all of the things done I needed to, plus more. At home, I wasn't as motivated to do housework, but now even doing the dishes or loading the dishwasher is something I put off as long as I can.
The worst part is that I think it has a lot to do with my mental health. I've been trying to keep it on track, but the longer the year goes on, the worst it gets. I think I push myself to do things that I know don't make me happy, but don't replenish it with things that will do me good, mentally and physically, in the end. I feel like all I do is take my roommate to work, pick her up from work, watch whatever I can find online, go to work myself, and then come home and do the same thing most days.
I think the source could also be the fact that I'm financially trying to catch up with all of my bills, which keep stacking higher and higher it seems. And I don't want to bother anyone by telling them I don't have the money to save or go out, so I use apps to pull from my next paycheck, or I secretly tell myself that I can find a way to not stay under $0 in my bank account. And I bottle it up, when I know I should just fess up to it and figure out things in a healthier way. But that also means finding ways to get out of the house and do what I enjoy.
But let's get back to the topic of motivation. I think it's important to remember that gaining motivation in yourself and what you do, includes making goals and determination to complete those things. The one thing that's helped me recently to get a bit more motivation back into my life was sitting down with my roommate and talking through my issues. We then created a list of short-term and long-term goals that I would try to complete. So far, I think I've completed one or two of my goals. But it helps to look at that paper and see where I want to go. And honestly, that's the motivation that I have right now.
Let's turn this into a conversation! Have you ever been in this place where you have lost all motivation? What did you do to help work through it? And what are some goals you made to help push through times of non-motivation? Let me know down in the comments. Hopefully this helps someone reading this to see that they're not alone. It's a common thing. But you gotta remember that it's a mind game, and you can push through it. Hope this helps!
-Pay <3
