Hey y'all! I know I haven't posted in a few weeks, but I wanted to just write out some things I've been thinking about lately. I had so many ideas for posts, but when I went to go write them down later I always either forgot what I was going to say or just never had time to type up what I had previously been thinking about. Today, though, I have been thinking a lot about a situation that I wasn't orignally part of but life got complicated & I am now somehow part of the whole mess. It started when I met a really good friend of mine. Let's call him "Mason". Well I met "Mason" a few months ago & became really good friends with him. He is someone who I was instantly attracted to because he had most of the qualities I had always been looking for in a guy. He loves Jesus. He loves music. He's fun to be around. He knows how to make me laugh. I feel super comfortable just being able to talk to him for hours without feeling awkward. The only problem when we met was that he had a girlfriend. From what I had heard about his girlfriend she was really nice, pretty, & also a believer of God. A few weeks ago, "Mason" & his girlfriend broke up for reasons that seemed reasonable to anyone else, except for the fact that it happened out of the blue. According to "Mason", he is still really good friends with his ex-girlfriend & there is no bad blood between them. Then one day I was getting ready for work & received a friend request from his ex-girlfriend on Facebook. This raised a red flag because she knew me & him were close. I had tagged him in statuses as my "brother in Christ" & she knew he had stayed at my house for a night before he went to his friend's house the next day that was about an hour away from my house. When I brought it up to "Mason" he said that as far as he knew they were on good terms & she had no resentment towards me, but being a girl I know that if I were in her position I would be very jealous of another girl hanging out with a boy I was with for a while. I know there is nothing going on between us, but I still have feelings for "Mason" that I don't know if they are mutual, because I don't wanna ask him how he feels so recently after breaking up with her & I don't want her to find a reason to hate me. There is nothing going on between us. We are just two friends who met & became very close friends. I call or text him when I need to talk through things that I know no one else will understand, & he usually does the same thing. That is how we have always been.
So here is my question: What do y'all think I shoud do? Should I bring it up to the ex-girlfriend about there being nothing between me & "Mason"? Should I ask "Mason" what I am feeling? Am I overreacting? Should I just keep quiet? When life gets confusing the only thing you can do is pray to God for clarity & ask those close to you to support you through whatever decision you make.
Here's 10 songs that I think will describe how I'm feeling right now (& a few I'm really loving at the moment):
- "Chandelier" by Sia
- "Tell Her You Love Her" by Echosmith
- "Emergency" by Paramore
- "Don't" by Ed Sheeran
- "Amnesia" by 5SOS
- "Maps" by Maroon 5
- "Rude" by Magic!
- "Happy Little Pill" by Troye Sivan
- "Somebody to You" by The Vamps
- "Boom Clap" by Charlie XCX
That's it for this post. Have a great day! I also hope y'all have a great weekend! If you have any advice for me or questions just leave a comment down below or tweet me @Paymitch on Twitter.
Live for God & Love for Music!
-Patience <3 =)
P.S. If there is anything you would like me to write about leave that in the comments too.
