I've been through a roller coaster of a week. I started the week by thinking my radiator was broken, to having the mechanic think it was my timing belt and water pump, back to thinking it was my radiator, to having my car die out of nowhere, to wondering if I was gonna be able to make it to school or work, to wondering if I could take and pick up my roommate from work, to wondering if I would make it home from work, to stressing about projects, to relaxing on days off, to learning worrying if I would have enough for my rent and my loan, to finding out my car is unsafe to drive, to worrying about just any little small thing. Luckily, I have friends who helped talk me through situations. Tonight was the beginning to a week that I thought would never end. I looked up into the sky and saw, not one rainbow, but two. To anyone else, it may just be a beautiful sight, but to me it meant that things would be okay. It was God's way of promising that I would be fine and that there was no need to stress the little things. He reminded me that I don't have to worry about what others think of me or what I think of myself. He reminded me that I don't have to impress anyone or worry about letting anyone down. All that I have to worry about is serving Him and spreading His Good News. I mean, we just celebrated Easter, which was the day that He proved He could conquer death, yet I sit here and worry about how I will get to clinicals on Wednesday. I don't have to worry. He's already taken care of that! In the Old Testament, God sent a rainbow as a promise that He would never flood the Earth again and that He would never forsake His people. For me, He promised that things would work out in His time and His plans are MUCH bigger and better than mine. With the help of Felisha, I realized that my car finally breaking down was the thing I had been asking for for about 3 years. When I first got the news I broke down and cried, because I was afraid of the future and what the next step was gonna be for me finding a new car, but I realized that I have all the resources I need around me, and God provided all of that. In the same way, I worried about Ireland, and who would be angry/disappointed if I go, and who would be angry/disappointed if I stay. But God has proven time and time again that it doesn't matter if they agree, but He will make a way for me if He wants me to go. As long as I am in His will, everything else is meaningless. If God doesn't have His hand in the situation, then there is no reason to do it. These two small rainbows tonight turned my week upside down and reminded me to the multiple promises God has made that He will never leave me and will always keep His promises. I don't need to stress the details. I have to leave the results up to Him! In these hectic times, especially at the end of a semester, we forget that God has promised us all of these things, but we put too much time in things of the world. When I get to Heaven no one is going to remember if I got a good grade on a quiz or if I taught a lesson poorly. The only thing they will remember is that I followed Christ and lived a life according to His will. I am extremely blessed with more than I deserve. It takes small instances like this to knock me back to reality and enjoy God's little blessings. So, if you ever feel like you're losing control of your life, remember that God has you in the palm of His hands and is never letting go. His ways are better than ours, and He does it out of love and compassion for His children. There is nothing to fear when you have God on your side! Just remember the rainbow and all that it holds dear.
Live for God & Love for Music!
-Patience <3 =)
