Expectations

Hey yall! Have you ever had one of those weeks where you feel like everyone is just expecting too much from you? You have to dress a certain way, act a certain way, have certain opinions, and talk a certain way. If you have an off day or if you do just one little thing that is different, it's like you having to be sick or something. & it's not just from classes, it's from work, family, friends, peers, people walking down the street, & just everyone in society. The only person, at this point, that I really care about what they think of me is God, & I know that He loves me no matter what. I just get fed up with having to put on a front like I'm in the wrong if I forget about one little thing or just do something that's out of character for me. It's like I can't have a bad day or a bad day without making someone mad cuz they expected something from me that I didn't provide. The worst part is that I feel if I say anything then I'm a jerk for telling someone what I think. Even if it's someone I'm close to, I feel like I can't say anything without getting accused of acting really strange. Sometimes I just forget to do things cuz of the hundred thousand other things I have on my plate to worry about that desire my attention. I don't mean to forget things, it just happens & in the moment I can't do anything except say "sorry" & try to move on from the situation. Or there's those situations when I don't wanna hear someone complain about how sucky their day has been, but I don't feel like I can tell them that I don't wanna hear about it cuz, once again, I come out looking like the jerk & like I don't care about them. I do care, but in that moment I just don't wanna hear about something negative. Society expects too much out of us & the only way to deal with it most of the time is too sit back & listen & not say a word. It's the only way that you will for sure not look like the bad person in the situation. So, I have this blog to write all my feelings out & if you've made it to this point then sweet! but I understand if people don't wanna finish it cuz let's face it, I don't have expectations of anyone reading my blog. I'm glad I have a place to go to get out all of my feelings in a healthy way & if people read it then that's cool, but I don't write these in hopes that someone will read it. It's a way of getting things off my chest before I explode.

So now that that's over, here's the part you were probably actually waiting for.....MUSIC RECOMMENDATION TIME!!!!! This week are 10 songs that will probably help you let go of all your pent up emotions & rock out.

1. "Welcome to My Life" by Simple Plan
2. "All the Small Things" by Blink-182
3. "In Too Deep" by Sum 41
4. "American Idiot" by Green Day
5. "Honesty" by Cartel
6. "Ocean Avenue" by Yellowcard
7. "Lost in Stereo" by All Time Low
8. "Chin Up Kid" by Forever the Sickest Kids
9. "Oh Well, Oh Well" by Mayday Parade
10. "The Best Thing (That Never Happened)" by We Are The In Crowd

That's my list! Do you have anymore to add to the list? Hope yall have a great week & don't let the expectations of the world get you down. 

God Bless!

-Patience <3 =)

Brr! It's Cold Out Here!

Hey yall! I don't know about where you're from, but here in Kentucky it's been like a constant freezer for the past few weeks and it won't defrost! It's so cold! For some of you, you may think that 2 inches of snow and -9 degrees weather is nothing. Here in Kentucky we're not used to living in an ice cold tundra. We've had class everyday except for we had one 2 hour delay and we had one day where classes were canceled after 4 pm (which only affected one of my classes). Last night I was walking from my car to my dorm, and I thought my nose was going to fall off or something. Not cool! I'm just sick of having to bundle up like an Eskimo everyday. A few days my fingers had that stinging, burning numbness and I thought for sure hypothermia was setting in. I like to live by the rule of if the temperature is less than my age then I don't wanna go outside. The president of our college sent out an email and pretty much said our education was too important to cancel classes and that the salt they were putting down wasn't melting the ice. What the heck?! I would rather cancel classes than become frost bitten cuz of the weather! Sadly, I went to all my classes though and toughed the snow and ice. I guess the only good thing about this weather is that I have an excuse to wear scarves and hats and sweaters. There's my bit of positivity and the end of my rant.

This week my list will consist of songs that remind me of winter:

1. "Sweater Weather" by The Neighborhood
2. "Sweater Song" by Hedley
3. "Do You Wanna Build a Snowman?" from Frozen
4. "Baby It's Cold Outside" by Kurt and Blaine from Glee (my favorite version)
5. "Let It Go" by Demi Lovato
6. "Let It Go" by Idina Menzel from Frozen
7. "Winter Wonderland" by Bing Crosby
8. "Wake Me Up" by Avicii (just cuz I love this song)
9. "Banana Pancakes" by Jack Johnson (makes me feel like staying inside)
10. "Counting Stars" by One Republic (not winter or coldness but a great song still)

That's it for this blog! Hop yall have a great week and I'll talk to you the next time I remember to do one of these things.

Live for God & Love for Music!

-Patience <3 =)

Happy 2014!!!!! (Plus Update)

Hey yall! Sorry I haven't been on here in what seems like forever! I have been super busy with everything. Christmas and New Year were great. Encounter was AMAZING! I'm back at school after working all break. I cut and died my hair back to brown (goodbye ginger!). Oh! I also found out yesterday I passed my Praxis I exam to get into the education program! Yeah that's pretty much where I have been. I hope you all had a great Christmas and New Year! I can't believe it's already 2014! Things have been so chaotic and tiring that I have barely had time to do anything about it. Hopefully things will calm down for the most part this semester before I head to New York for a month this summer for summer project (did I fail to mention that earlier?). God has revealed things in my life and have showed me who and what I need in my life in order to keep my eyes focused on Him, and it has made me feel SO much better! This year is gonna be a new start. This is a new me and I couldn't be any more excited to see what God has in store for me! So that is where I'm at this point in my life: I'm just following God and living life the best I can, which means getting rid of the negative and focusing on bettering myself.

This week I don't have a playlist, but I have a artist recommendation. At Encounter there was a guy named Matt Papa who lead our praise and worship every morning, and he really inspired me both musically and spiritually. I encourage you to look him up on YouTube and watch his videos. My favorites are "The Story of God" (which is where he does basically spoken word and tells the story of God summed up in  10 minutes) and "The Ocean" (which is a beautiful song!). Go check him out at www.youtube.com/MattPapaTV. I promise you won't regret it.

I hope yall have a fantastic week, and I'll try to post more.

Live for God & Love for Music!
-Patience <3 =)

It's That Time of Year

Hey y'all! I am support pumped that it's almost Christmas! It's my favorite holiday & something about this time of year just makes me happy. One of the main  reasons for my happiness is that I get to celebrate Jesus' birth, but also I love everything about Christmas. This year I even started listening to Christmas music before Thanksgiving, which never happens & I am usually strict when it comes to that, but this year was completely different. If you don't celebrate Christmas, then you can probably relate to whatever holiday you celebrate at this time of year. I don't like the snow & coldness much, but Christmas makes up for it. I live Christmas!

Here is my top 10 Christmas songs/covers to put you in the holiday spirit:

1. "Ho Ho Hopefully" by The Maine
2. "All I Can Give You" by Jason Lancaster
3. "Oh Holy Night" by Hey Monday
4. "Wishlist" by The Ready Set
5. "Baby It's Cold Outside" by Kurt & Blaine from Glee
6. "All I Want for Christmas is You" by Mariah Carey
7. "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas" by Letters & Lights
8. "Christmas Mittens" by And Parker
9. "Mistletoe" by Justin Bieber
10. "Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays" by NSYNC

& there you have it folks! Hope y'all have a great week & if you're like me & have goals then I hope you do well. 

Live for God & Love for Music!

- Patience <3 =)

Things Have Changed

Hey y'all! I'm watching you in advance that this is a rant blog & I'm sorry. So I've noticed the reason why I don't feel comfortable in my home town, & it's because everything has changed! When I was younger I was so blind to all the drama that actually goes on here. Now that I've been away for a while, I see that things have changed for the worst & I don't feel wanted here anymore. People have lied to me for months & I'm so sick of always feeling like I did something wrong! I just wanna go back to college & move away from this place. Besides most of my family & a few true friends, I have nothing else left. God has opened my eyes to the things that I couldn't see before. I'm not saying that my college is perfect, but I actually feel at home there. There's drama, but compared to this place it's like nothing. When I'm home I question every decision I make & if I can trust anyone, even some family members. The worst part is that I love my family & friends & my dog, but once I get the money I'm leaving this one horse town & moving onto some place that I feel like I belong. Right now I'm ready to go back to my classes & escape reality. My tears feel like they're gonna fill with tears at any moment, which never happens, & after the night I've had I just wanna get away as quick as I can. I'm an introvert but at this level I wanna go deep into a bubble of my own & shut out the world, which I know isn't what I should do. Have you ever felt like that? It's the worst! I thought the drama would be gone once I graduated but it's gotten worse in some ways.

Okay rant over! once again I am  so sorry to load this out on y'all but I had to get it out. Please keep me & my friends & family in your prayers while we get through this. Thank you if you read until the end. I love y'all & hope you have a great week!

Live for God & Love for Music!
-Patience <3 =)

Husband Material

Hey yall! So lately I don't what's gotten into me, but all I've been thinking about is my future relationship (whenever that will be). I know God has a guy in the future for me somewhere, sometime, but I am so impatient (yes, ironic I know). One minute I'm thinking about a really great guy friend of mine that everyone thought I should date. He's no Prince Charming, in fact he's a big old goofball, but he's one of the sweetest guys I know! I though for a time it could be him, but then I realized that I was just thinking that cuz others said that thought it was a good idea. Whether it could actually be a thing or not I have no clue. But there is one guy that is also a friend of mine who is husband material. All the girls think the same way (it's almost a daily topic). He's attractive, love the Lord, super sweet guy, has a great sense of humor, kind, considerate, loves coffee, loves TWD, muscular, and all together a great guy. I know I would never have a shot with him, but whoever he dates is one lucky girl! Not only do I get to see him on Thursdays, but I see him usually at lunch/dinner, and we just happen to go to the same church (well when he shows up every other Sunday). I am such a girl when it comes to him! I feel like I instantly smile and go all girly when he's around and make a complete fool out of myself. I think it may just be my hormones messing with me, but I know that he is a great guy. For now I'm happy with just being his friend, but I kinda wish it would turn into something more. Sometimes I just wanna scream "Hey _______! I like you!" It doesn't help that his hometown is literally 15 minutes away from mine and is where my aunt and uncle live, so I just wanna invite him to hang out. I know I have to do the Christianly thing and wait for him to pursue me, but gosh dang it I can't stand waiting! Once again, that's just the girl in me. It's such a strange feeling to like someone. I don't really know if I like it or not, but I guess I'm just gonna have to deal with it, at least until he graduates/moves away. Okay, rant over!

Now for the music portion of this blog. I have my Top 10 love songs this week especially for this blog. So here ya go!

1. "Marry Me" - Jason Derrulo
2. "1, 2, 3, 4" - Plain White T's
3. "I'm Yours" - Jason Mraz
4. "Love Like Woe" - The Ready Set
5. "Mannequin" - The Summer Set
6. "Thunder" - Boys Like Girls
7. "Just the Girl" - The Click Five
8. "If It Means a Lot to You" - A Day To Remember
9. "I'll Be" - Edwin McCain
10. "Iris" - The Goo Goo Dolls

Welp that's my list. What's your list? Is there a guy in your life (or lady in your life if your a dude) that makes you act completely different than how you normally due? Are they husband/wife material? Let me know! I hope yall have a great week! Happy early Thanksgiving!

Live for God & Love for Music!

-Patience <3 =)

#TeamJerzak

Hey yall! Today I got to thinking about a person who has been really influencial to me over the past few years (& it's not just any person). I've talked before about how my favorite singer is Stephen Jerzak, & he has made such an impact on my life over the past 3 & a half years. I was first introduced to his music by my friend Morgan Graham. It was June right before my senior year of high school during a weekend vacation that our families & their CB club take together. She showed me his cover of "My First Kiss" by 3OH!3. From that point, we watched his music video for "Cute" & other videos he had posted. Let's just say I was hooked from the start! I remember the funniest moment of that night was when Morgan's grandma walked into the room & was asking what in the world he was singing. The next morning she was telling everyone at breakfast that we were watching a video & the guy was singing "this is the way I kiss" (wrong lyrics btw but it was hilarious to hear her take on the song). Ever since that night, I have loved his music. I tweeted earlier that it was amazing to see how far he has come musically, & it's so true! I started out seeing long-haired, 17 at the time, Stephen doing covers & making his first music video to him creating a pop album with a signed label to doing songs with Cady Groves, Leighton Meester, My Genuine Find, Jamestown Story, Romance on a Rocketship, & Dylan Lloyd. The first online purchase I ever bought was his zombie shirt (which I still wear as a sleep shirt, holes & all), & if that isn't dedication then I don't what is! I feel like I know him almost on a personal level, even though we have never even met & he only knows who I am because I tweet at him all the time & I tweet his sister, mom, & best friend (Dylan). I can proudly say that I have been a part of Team Jerzak from almost the beginning. His music just keeps getting better as he gets older. From 17 - 21, Stephen has always been the same guy he has always been, & it's all because of his fans. I hope that I can meet him one day, but for now I am okay with just listening to his music & watching his videos & live chats. I encourage everyone to check out his music & see why I love him so much! If you want to check out his YouTube it's youtube.com/stephenjerzak. His Facebook, Twitter, & Soundcloud are just the website name /stephenjerzak. Stephen, if you are reading this I want you to know that I am so proud of how far you have come, & I'm excited to see where you will go next!





For this week's Top 10 songs, I'm gonna countdown my favorite Stephen Jerzak songs of all time.

1. "Cute"
2. "Best Friends"
3. "Party Like You're Single"
4. "Dance & Drive"
5. "King"
6. "Come Back Home"
7. "Lost for Words"
8. "Party Girl"
9. "Where Did You Go"
10. "Hawaiin Punch"

I hope yall have a great rest of the week! Stay warm where ever you are! 

Live for God & Love for Music!

-Patience <3 =)

P.S. If you have twitter, make sure to tweet #Jerzday & tag Stephen & his family in it ;)